You're probably thinking:

OH NO NOT ANOTHER BUDGETING OR LAW OF ATTRACTION COURSE?

I FEEL YOU!!!

Let me start by introducing myself and telling you my story, so you understand why this course is not a budgeting, law of attraction or mindset course.

My name is Vangile Makwakwa and I help people heal ancestral money trauma so they can fall in love with their bank accounts and live their best lives.

In this course I give you the tools and meditations I created to help me heal my trauma and fears around money so I could change my spending habits, pay off US$60,000 in debt and increase my savings

The focus in this course is on healing - you will work with your emotions and stop judging yourself for feeling what you feel about yourself or money.

You will start to heal the trauma you have around handling money - that trauma that is stored in your body.

At no point will you be made to feel like you have to give up the pleasures of life in order to "get ahead" and be financially stable.

Before we get started I want you to understand that our issues with spending and saving are not about the money.

I've had times where I made a lot of money in my business and times when I made no money, and my savings and spending habits didn't change.

There was a time (9 years ago), where I was US$60,000 in debt, earning US$8,000 a month and still unable to pay back a penny of my debt.

Instead I kept recreating debt and using all my earnings to donate to charities or buy things I didn't need.

And freaking out that my family would find out I was making money and ask me for money when I really didn't have money.

The irony of this whole situation was that I truly believed I wasn't making any money and would cry to family and friends about this and borrow money from them.

I couldn't see the money I made because I was too busy avoiding money and being triggered every time I managed money. But I didn't know this then.

Spending money always felt like torture. All I felt when it came to money was shame, anxiety and frustration.

Shame because my parents had spent soo much on my education, so how could I NOT have my sh*t together?

Frustration because why couldn't I JUST follow a budget and spend less than I made and pay back what I owed?

Anxiety and guilt because I never felt like I had enough money.

There's nothing as sad as earning money, having money or making money and NOT knowing what you did with the money!

I know because I lived like this for years.

Money was like water through my hands!!!

I know what it's like to spend most of my days worrying about money and feeling financially stuck.

I know what it's like to be well educated, well traveled, look like you have everything together AND be petrified of looking at your bank account or of a family emergency.

I was the woman who had zero money in her bank account, no matter how much money I made or how often I affirmed that I loved money!

I used to have panic attacks about handling money.

Going to the ATM was a mini hell for me - I'd psyche myself up to withdraw money, pray like hell that I actually had money in my account and then quickly throw away the slip so I couldn't see the bank statement.

I was as scared of HAVING money, as I was of NOT HAVING money.

HAVING money made me uneasy.

Whenever I reached my savings goal or made more money than expected, I'd go a little crazy and go on "gifting binges" where I'd spend all that money on other people or on things I didn't need.

I was US$60,000 debt and was giving away money to friends and family like Santa Claus and shopping like a millionaire!!!

And then I'd spend the rest of the month or year worrying about not having enough money or the new debt I'd created.

I thought there was something wrong with me and I was weak willed because every personal finance course would tell me about self discipline and how important it was to live on a budget.

I'd draft beautiful budgets but I just couldn't stick to them!

I'd set wonderful savings goals, but as soon as I saved something, an emergency would arise or I would give that money away or spend it.

What higher grade witchcraft was this?

I truly believed I was bewitched!

I felt such deep shame because I have an Honors Degree in Finance and an MBA, so I felt like I should know this stuff!

I mean I'd spent 5 years in the top universities learning about finance and investing.

The truth is: Spending and saving money has nothing to do with self discipline, even though on the surface it appears that way.

This obsession with having fiscal discipline or being positive, used to cause me soo much pain and shame, because it used to make me feel weak willed, like there was something wrong with me!

I know what that self flaggelation to be someone different feels like - I used to beat myself up for never having money in my bank account and always spending whatever I'd saved or always finding a need to borrow money after having paid off a debt.

What I've seen over the years, is that the more I did the inner work and worked with my money trauma, the more I was able to change my money habits, the more “disciplined” I became and the more relaxed I became about money.

I paid off my US$60,000 in debt in 3.5 years and started a new chapter of my life as a traveling entrepreneur in 2015.

I have lived in 12 different countries and have traveled to over 20 countries and spent a month or more in each place, without incurring any debt. Even on my travels I still continue to save and contribute to my investment accounts, which for me has been the biggest shift, because like I said - money used to be like water through my hands.

HOW WOULD IT FEEL TO GET THESE KIND IF RESULTS AFTER ONLY 5 DAYS OF DOING THE INNER WORK AROUND YOUR BANK ACCOUNT?

If you're ready to stop freaking out about your finances and are ready to feel empowered with money and start mastering your finances, especially the money in YOUR bank account then click below to join the challenge.